What Day Is It Anyway?

Oh my Goddess!

So, everything has been stirred up! Everything.

Am I happy in my job? Not exactly...do I want to stay? NO. Too fucking much drama. What's next? Don't know yet. Yet being the operative word.
Am I happy in my life right now? Yes and no. Last week seemed to be the 'Beat Marnie Up Week.' I realized several things:

I allow people to give me unsolicited advice. What happened to simply sharing and then being asked if I want feedback?

I allow the unsolicited advice and then I feel bad about myself. What the fuck for??

I have been very happy (in some ways) being single; I have truly enjoyed developing my relationship with myself. That has rocked my world in numerous, delightful ways.

I believe that creating my life can be really easy. I get to put down the struggle.

I want to "fix" things. There is NOTHING to fix. It's all good. :)

Sometimes, moms don't always see their creations as beautiful...I am choosing to see beauty in my life. It is my creation, after all. :)

I am free!

Good things come when the space is open. Including my creativity!!

I went to a women's playshop on Saturday. My monthly tantra gig! I set my intention to shed anything that was hanging me up. What came up during an opening meditation was personal freedom. After 2 rounds of breath work, I truly set myself free (with help and support). I saw the oldest, stuckest energies move! I was supported by 4 very powerful women to do this. I felt a huge connection with them. Giving myself permission gave them permission as well. The release was sweet and healing laughter followed.

Today, I still feel that open and empty space inside. I completely grasp the concept now that I hold that space open or I fill it with too many thoughts--mental 'stuff.' Being conscious with my thoughts and the prompts that my body gives me is how I choose to roll from now on!

I am planning to start my own website. I know it is time to take my work out in a bigger way. My wisdom is enough. My talents and abilities are enough. I am enough...and more than enough. It really is okay not to know everything. That doesn't lessen the value of what I do have to offer to others. It has taken me a while to come to this. I am going to trust myself and listen to the call.

Bliss In!

Marnie