Dancing With Myself...

No, not the old Billy Idol tune...

I have found that, lately, I am arguing with myself! Part of me feels one way and the other part of me doesn't like or want to have that feeling. (Oh, the classic think/feel, double-bind!!) Is this the ego-driven part of me, or what? I don't really like this part of me...the ego is sometimes so delicate and sensitive. It really wants to insist that for me to have these feelings leaves me open, weak and vulnerable. In fact, ego believes that I will look pretty damn stupid having these feelings...

So, how am I going to lead myself in this little dance? Am I gonna be brave, and follow my heart? Or am I gonna wimp out and let my ego run the show? Can I believe in my heart? Have faith? Be patient? Trust myself and the Great, Big, Wide and Wonderful Universe to deliver to me the deepest desires of my heart?

Today, I am choosing to follow my heart. To trust. To have faith. To be gentle and kind with my too small and too fragile ego...

Let's see what happens!

Shed Your Heavy Weight...

and let your heart be light!



A dragonfly rests on my shoulder, night and day. (My guy is green, with lovely multi-colored wings and my freckles showing through!) He reminds me that everything is gonna be okay. In the jewel tones of his iridescent wings, I see the light that lives in all of us reflected there. It is the light of Spring, the light of growth, the light of Life. The time of hibernation is almost done...even if Phil did see his shadow. Both my heart and my body want to lighten things up!

I like feeling comfortable in my own skin. I love to embrace all the beauty of the physical body and relax into bliss. Soak in the tub. Dance. Exercise. Sweat and stretch.

As my body is transforming with raw foods and Pilates and yoga, I find my relationship with it is changing. My body is strong and flexible. It can do so much more than I used to believe! My body deserves love and care. Clean, live food and pure water. My body is divine and worthy of my devotion to its health and well-being. I love to dress in things offering comfort and softness to my skin...I like the way the fabric feels when it moves against my skin. I felt inspired by Rainbeau Mars to develop my own daily rituals to care for my own body and my own beauty.

My face now is not the face I beheld in the mirror when I was younger. Sometimes, I find that my skin hangs better from my bones and my features stand out more. I am still learning to love the face I see now in the mirror... (I have looked at this face for so long, I don't know if I have ever truly "seen" myself.)Soon, it will be time to show my face, to let the dragonflies dance, let them touch me and to allow their message to really sink in...and then let my light shine!

I look forward to dragonfly weather...the bright sun and the blue sky and the warmth that comes with Spring on my skin. It is a reminder to me that I am indeed a part of Life here on our Mother Earth and I have my place in the Grand Scheme of Things!

Faith

A President's Words of Wisdom

“In this sad world of ours, sorrow comes to all, and it often comes with bitter agony. Perfect relief is not possible, except with time. You cannot now believe that you will ever feel better. But this is not true. You are sure to be happy again. Knowing this, truly believing it, will make you less miserable now. I have had enough experience to make this statement.” ~ Abraham Lincoln

Whatever it is that we believe, we make it so. And on this rainy day, I feel like turning inward and resting with my heart. Lately, my heart has ached and even felt heavy. I have experienced disappointment and a little frustration...and yet, I know it is only temporary! I have welcomed my guests and have asked them to teach me and to offer me their gifts. I know that they will soon be on their way...

Sorrow comes. Pain comes. Suffering is optional! (The more we fight the emotions that we don't like, the more we prolong their visit with us.)

Happiness does come again.

Open the door to Happiness, put out the welcome mat. Act in anticipation of Its visit. Just like the sun will be out again, Happiness will stand at the door.

Sing It and Bring It! (Thanks, Steve!)

We do have permission to have our feelings and our emotions...all of them. It is all okay. It is part of the journey. Bless it all. :) Love What Is.

Be well!

What Really Matters

At the end of the day, I often ask myself this question:

"Of all the things that are happening in my life, what is really going to matter once I have left this life and I am standing in the eternities?"

Is money going to matter in the eternities?

Is a broken dish going to matter in the eternities?

Is the latest gadget or trendiest clothes going to matter in the eternities?

No.

What is going to matter in the eternities? I think that the answer lies in our personal integrity and how we live within it. The answer is one that is given at the level of the heart.

I do know one thing that matters ~ and it matters each and every day. Not just on 14 February.

Here are some quotes from the Bard, Wm. Shakespeare:

" My bounty is as boundless as the sea, my love as deep; the more I give to thee, the more I have, for both are infinite."

" They do not love that do not show their love."

" So long as I can breathe or I can see, so long lives your love which gives life to me."

" Love sought is good, but given unsought is better."

" Love from one side hurts, but love from two sides heals."

Everything is an expression of Love, if we choose to see it that way. Even the stuff that shows up to teach us, even the painful things and the things that we don't like or understand. Love is there, a seed planted, for some future opportunity to grow.

Whether or not the seed grows is up to us...and it is a choice.

Love is where you find It...Look for It Everywhere.

May Love have Its Way with YOU! (Thanks Sao!)