There are absolutely no accidents; I truly believe this. As I contemplate my life - both 2014 and the years that came before - I am amazed at the journey and the many paths I've taken to get here today.
I really need to make some changes. I've finally reached such a painful place that I feel sick & tired of my life not working for me. I have exercised so much judgment against myself, there's no surprise that I feel tender & bruised right now. The truth is that I have done a lot of things to fit into boxes that didn't belong to me & to fit into boxes that I created in some kind of attempt to feel loved and included. Not that any of those things actually worked for me or helped me to feel loved and accepted. (That is really an inside job!)
I haven't really expressed my creativity fully or embraced my abilities to see, feel & hear energy completely. Oh, I've come a long way. There is more to go. I am kinder to myself, more loving & gentle. It's getting safer for me to show who I really am. I have been unwilling to put faith in myself or make investments in me. I have been unwilling to take risks in order to get where I aim to go. I've been waiting for someone or something outside of me to be a catalyst for change for me - just like I can be for others. But, it will only happen when I feel ready.
The Divine Feminine has been calling my name for years. I have worked to answer Her call. As the Solstice approaches, I have asked myself what I am willing to put down. And what I desire to claim and call my own for 2015.
The answers are unfolding. It is time to invest. It is time to risk. It is time to take the leap that my heart is calling me to make. It is time to release all that no longer suits me, no longer serves me. It is time to just get the hell outta my own way. It is time to face the Light and the Dark that lives inside of me, as it lives in each of us. It is the perfect time!
May the soft darkness of the Mother embrace you
May your heart light the way
May the path rise up to meet you
And may you find the true gifts of the Season
