A Shedventure!

What a space I have been in recently! A wonderful new space that brings with it new insights, new feelings, old issues and old learned responses.

With all that said, I just feel so tired of carrying so much stuff around! Stuff with which I have been completely unconscious. Stuff I have just absorbed by osmosis. Even more, it’s stuff I have been avoiding, resisting, or denying for a long time.

New perceptions are arising almost daily, in a rush of impressions and feelings. Sometimes the input is so startling and unexpected I don’t know what to do, to think, to feel, or even how to relate. Actually, I usually take up the role of the witness; what a blessing!

I have created my life thus far. I am a Creator. I am also an artist. An artist of my own life. And a writer. And a healer, a teacher and a shaman.

I have held out the intention to clean up my messes from past creations. I have held the space for this to come to pass. And it has. It is time to let go, to clear the air and to lighten my load. I can’t breathe in my own life right now. I can’t breathe and I can’t feel the flow of creation and I feel as though I can’t move. As much as I have hidden behind a wall or a mask of fear, it’s worse to feel squashed, trapped and stuck.

I wanted answers in terms of my next step or steps; I didn’t get direct answers. I got a shedventure instead…

What I do know instinctively, though, is that by giving myself sacred space in my life (because my life is sacred, every part), I will get my answers. I will find my way…and my bliss and my joy and my very own happiness.