Day 3

Clutter is all about the energy of emotions. As I explore my emotions today, I sense loads of anger buried beneath the "stuff." I guess I must like hanging on to this anger, although I am not certain of the mistaken goal behind it.

I know that in the past anger has given me the strength to make changes and the courage to go into new and frequently uncharted territory. I am feeling like I no longer need the anger since I am free to make choices about myself and what I want to do with my life and my energy.

While feeling into my body and into the issue of how I block myself from receiving love is uncomfortable, I know this is allowing me to release things from my life in a big way. Change is coming; it is already begun. Movement has begun.

I do recognize that I have allowed the beliefs and the perceptions of others to take up residence in my space, my energy field and in my head. These maggoty, parasitic beliefs and perceptions are usually all about what others think of me and who they believe me to be. Quite mistakenly, I might add.

People have told me for YEARS that I look just like my mother. (This is NOT about my mother's physical beauty! This is about me being seen for Me.) I finally asked my dad what he thought...something I had never thought to do before! He doesn't think that I look like my mother. I don't think I look just like my mother. I no longer accept this perception from others. I am a good mix of both my parents. More than that--I LOOK LIKE ME!!! And what is wrong with that???

And for some strange reason, people bring up how I was as a child, as though that child is still who and how I am today. Wow! Stuck in the past much?? I am a new and better me with each inhale. Every moment is an opportunity to show up as my very best-est and most loving and compassionate self. I choose to take those moments; I choose to be my most real and my most authentic self. And my best-est self includes the messy and the vulnerable moments in my life--because that is when I am REAL!

Peace in!