Oh yeah, I know…trite title, but true.
I have begun a new phase in my life, not entirely sure of my direction. My youngest child has graduated from high school a year early and I think the empty nest experience is coming. I have mixed feelings about this. I am working a part-time job that I enjoy, but one that ultimately doesn’t fulfill me. I wake up at the ass-crack of dawn and have a limited social life. I would love to relocate and have no clue where this ultimately will be. Basically, I don’t know what I want to be when I grow up. I have been somebody’s mom for 20+ years (3 somebodies, actually), I find that I am somewhat at a loss to know what to do with myself. And once my daughter turns 18 and goes on her way, I will be in the space to “grow up.”
I know that I am holding myself back. That is the way it is with most of us folks down here on the planet. It’s all self-imposed nonsense. I keep reminding myself that I am bigger than my fears. And that staying devoted to the giving of my gifts is what really matters. This crazy world is filled with illusion and most of us spend our time chasing things that have no real meaning. I believe that what’s gonna matter in the end is how well we have loved while we were here.
I have been doing psychic reads on line and recognize that isn’t the best fit for me. I have been a spiritual coach and energy therapist for over 12 years and I think that is my true love…
So, I asked for clarity. I asked for a man who meets and matches the deepest desires of my heart. I asked for direction. I got all those things! Now the question I am asking myself is, “Am I brave enough to take this on?”
I guess we’ll find out. :)
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