WTF and DGAF Moments...Or the Tale of Two Wolves

Yes, I have those moments! In fact, my favorite swear word is the f-word...

My daughter, Miss B, commented that I am so positive and then I will turn around and have a "WTF" moment. Of course I will. I am a human being and as such, I am sometimes a walking mass of contradictions. That doesn't bother me.

What would concern me is if I didn't allow myself to have my feelings in the moment. If I were to stuff my feelings, my body would be holding that negative energy. My body would change(my relationship with my body would change), my health could potentially change and my mood and my perceptions would most likely go downhill. It is best to express things in the moment as appropriately as possible. If I can't do that, I give myself a big time-out...then I deal with things when I am feeling a bit better. Of course, it would also give me fidgets if I were to hold onto one of those "WTF" moments and if I repeated it for a week or a month or a year. If I didn't express myself in the moment, that suppressed moment could impact me, my perceptions and what I chose to create for the rest of my life...if I let it.

I used to say that anything is possible. Then I understood that in each moment, EVERYTHING is possible. (Thanks, Sent, for that one!) It is completely up to me to choose what will be. In each moment, I have the capacity to choose to be mean, small and unkind, or to choose compassion, understanding and kindness (which all have the promise of moving me closer to love, joy and bliss). I have a dark, destructive shadow self and a bright, loving, open self. They both exist at the same time, neither of them ever goes away. The one that others see is the one that I choose.

Where attention goes, energy follows. It doesn't matter what I think; it only matters what I believe. The mind is like a computer; it remains neutral. It is what we do with our thoughts--whether we keep them, act on them, or store them and allow them to fester and grow inside us that matters...those thoughts--the ones we store--can impact our beliefs. I choose to allow my expression and I choose to control my thoughts. Stream of consciousness and the human "ego" mind is constantly changing and full of nonsense thoughts. Let them flow, let them go, pay no attention and live with non-attachment.

Live from the heart.

A Cherokee Legend

An old Cherokee is teaching his grandson about life. "A fight is going on inside me," he said to the boy.

"It is a terrible fight and it is between two wolves. One is evil - he is anger, envy, sorrow, regret, greed, arrogance, self-pity, guilt, resentment, inferiority, lies, false pride, superiority, and ego." He continued, "The other is good - he is joy, peace, love, hope, serenity, humility, kindness, benevolence, empathy, generosity, truth, compassion, and faith.

The same fight is going on inside you - and inside every other person, too."

The grandson thought about it for a minute and then asked his grandfather, "Which wolf will win?"

The old Cherokee simply replied, "The one you feed."