What will it be?

I've been in such a strange place lately. It is coming upon the first holidays without Gran! I never know when sad is coming to visit. I usually close the door and attempt to push it away. But lately, I am learning that it's not helping me to move through my feelings.

I watched 'Pay It Forward' to get myself to cry. Wow, I really don't like that movie for that one reason. I always cry. Well, ok, I cried both times I watched it.

Work is strange. I have outgrown the place and have begun applying for new positions. We shall see what comes of this.

What I do understand, though, is that I would love to make a huge shift. I just don't know how to get from where I am now to where I would love to be.

I've been contemplating my "why" behind my desires. The reason that lights me up. The words that reflect the essence of my feelings. The visions of what my life would look like if I actually received my desires. It is a new practice.

I love the idea of connecting to my senses, including my intuition and the feeling of saying "Yes!" to life. I am willing to dream and yet, I feel afraid to dream.

But that won't stop me.

Here's to the New!