Day 30

Things are moving, even if it's presently slow going.

Today, I took more bags to Goodwill. They must love me. LOL Not much in the way of clothes--a little here, a little there. More books. More cds. More old board games.

I had an old bracelet repaired. I had a favorite shirt altered to fit me now. I made a list of things that still needed to go. I made a list of things I wanted to do.

I have things that need replacing; that will happen eventually. Right now, it is more about staying on top of laundry and the like. How many pairs of underwear does one need, really? I am not sure; I just know I need to do some laundry before I go commando!

My daughter has been shedding. She has been cleaning. She has been painting. This is really something. Painting the wall that she previously decorated with interesting pictures and colors artfully smeared on the wall, with fabric draping the sides like a fall of curtains.

My emotions have balanced out. Thank goodness. I am more and more myself. And happy, even if I am not quite clear about my direction. I do know that I am going to think about concepts for a website. I am going to carve out a new routine to honor myself and my body and my health. I am going to make my life more sacred.

I am going to shift my interactions with others...and if I in anyway feel bad about myself, the convo is over. And if all of their conversations with me are negative, then I just won't have them in my life. This is a new place. I feel so over the negativity. I am choosing to life my life a certain way...and it really is making me happy!

I really get the whole 'fuck off' thing. If someone really cares, why, Why, WHY would they tear you down??? All because they think you are doing a rotten job of living your life and you don't know what the fuck you are doing. (Or something like that. ) According to them. Uh, excuse me? Whose life is this anyway?

I am sitting back, laughing. Life is pretty funny, when all is said and done. I am pretty fucking funny, too. Checking how things are unfolding. Holding space for grace and ease. Shedding limitations.

Everything is possible.

Werd, y'all!