There are absolutely no accidents; I truly believe this. As I contemplate my life - both 2014 and the years that came before - I am amazed at the journey and the many paths I've taken to get here today.
I really need to make some changes. I've finally reached such a painful place that I feel sick & tired of my life not working for me. I have exercised so much judgment against myself, there's no surprise that I feel tender & bruised right now. The truth is that I have done a lot of things to fit into boxes that didn't belong to me & to fit into boxes that I created in some kind of attempt to feel loved and included. Not that any of those things actually worked for me or helped me to feel loved and accepted. (That is really an inside job!)
I haven't really expressed my creativity fully or embraced my abilities to see, feel & hear energy completely. Oh, I've come a long way. There is more to go. I am kinder to myself, more loving & gentle. It's getting safer for me to show who I really am. I have been unwilling to put faith in myself or make investments in me. I have been unwilling to take risks in order to get where I aim to go. I've been waiting for someone or something outside of me to be a catalyst for change for me - just like I can be for others. But, it will only happen when I feel ready.
The Divine Feminine has been calling my name for years. I have worked to answer Her call. As the Solstice approaches, I have asked myself what I am willing to put down. And what I desire to claim and call my own for 2015.
The answers are unfolding. It is time to invest. It is time to risk. It is time to take the leap that my heart is calling me to make. It is time to release all that no longer suits me, no longer serves me. It is time to just get the hell outta my own way. It is time to face the Light and the Dark that lives inside of me, as it lives in each of us. It is the perfect time!
May the soft darkness of the Mother embrace you
May your heart light the way
May the path rise up to meet you
And may you find the true gifts of the Season
Dec 20, 2014
Dec 13, 2014
Begin Again...
January will mark half a century on the planet for me.
Fifty doesn't seem so old anymore, yet it also seems like so much can happen in that amount of time. So, in honor of 50 years on the planet, I am going to make a commitment to myself to begin again.
Something I've learned in all my time here is that there is a lot of energy expended on judgments. Judgments we make about ourselves, judgments we make about others & all the judgments we fix or we own or with which we secretly agree. We change ourselves or make ourselves smaller (or larger) to fit into all the judgments.
Judgment is a form of violence to me. Instead, judgment has become a tool, a signal, or a marker of when I have stepped out of Love. In addition, I've heard a lot of people talk about Self-Love. Not many people actually embark on a journey of Self-Love or know how to teach it, though. (Check out Jennifer Posada for great resources!)
Self-Love is a multi-faceted thing. There are many ways to show Self-Love. What has really struck a chord has been to do little things everyday that make me feel good. This is all about connecting to myself & what feels good in my body. Being in my body & feeling good in it is a great place to be. It reminds me that bodies know how to be happy - they are wired for it - being happy is our natural state.
I am setting down years of conditioning & walking away with my hands up! Even though it feels crazy-weird...I am going to own my own brand of crazy & just go with it. :) I am going to go back to myself over & over again, every time I start to feel unhappy or move into judgment. I choose!
I love ME!
Here's to another 50 years on the planet & to a Life filled with Love!
Fifty doesn't seem so old anymore, yet it also seems like so much can happen in that amount of time. So, in honor of 50 years on the planet, I am going to make a commitment to myself to begin again.
Something I've learned in all my time here is that there is a lot of energy expended on judgments. Judgments we make about ourselves, judgments we make about others & all the judgments we fix or we own or with which we secretly agree. We change ourselves or make ourselves smaller (or larger) to fit into all the judgments.
Judgment is a form of violence to me. Instead, judgment has become a tool, a signal, or a marker of when I have stepped out of Love. In addition, I've heard a lot of people talk about Self-Love. Not many people actually embark on a journey of Self-Love or know how to teach it, though. (Check out Jennifer Posada for great resources!)
Self-Love is a multi-faceted thing. There are many ways to show Self-Love. What has really struck a chord has been to do little things everyday that make me feel good. This is all about connecting to myself & what feels good in my body. Being in my body & feeling good in it is a great place to be. It reminds me that bodies know how to be happy - they are wired for it - being happy is our natural state.
I am setting down years of conditioning & walking away with my hands up! Even though it feels crazy-weird...I am going to own my own brand of crazy & just go with it. :) I am going to go back to myself over & over again, every time I start to feel unhappy or move into judgment. I choose!
I love ME!
Here's to another 50 years on the planet & to a Life filled with Love!